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Chapter 27 of "Secret Desire" begins with intriguing events: "Wouldn't he?"She glares at me, her chin tipping up in that defiance Iām beginning to... Donāt miss it!
"Wouldn't he?"
She glares at me, her chin tipping up in that defiance Iām beginning to recognize, that unfaltering belief in the goodness of the world around her. "You don't know him."
"I know men like him." I pick up my glass again and finish the vodka. "Men who see everything as transaction, who calculate risk and reward. Who sacrifice pieces to win the game."
"He's my father."
"And you're his daughter. But you're also clearly a means to an end." I set the glass down. "How much time does he spend with you? How often does he call? How many times has he chosen business over you?"
Her silence is answer enough.
"He loves me.ā She swallows hard. āHeās always taken care of me. Given me everything I wanted, always seen that I was comfortableā¦ā
"Maybe." I shrug. "But he loves power more. Loves winning more. And right now, you're more valuable to him as a captive than as a daughter."
"Stop." Her voice cracks slightly. "Just stop."
I should let her process this on her own. Should walk away and let her come to terms with what her father is. I would, if I was a better man.
But I can't.
Because I have a choice to make, and it needs to be made before I walk out that door, before I risk seeing any of my men, who all know that the clock has run out on Liesl Baumannās life.
Whether Iām going to kill her, as I should⦠or save her, and risk everything.
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LIESL
Icanāt process any of this. None of it makes sense.
My father isnāt paying. He isnāt coming to get me. Heās making moves with some other family instead, plotting against Andrei, using meā¦
I want to clap my hands over my ears, my eyes, block all of this out. This isnāt my life. Itisnāt. Iām just a girl who lives in New York City, who has a nice apartment, who works as a buyer for brands, who has a decently large Instagram following and likes yoga and Pilates and juice dates with friends. I like happy hour and rom-coms and I hate horror movies. Sometimes I go running in Central Park. I talk to my dad once a week unless heās really busy, and I see him at holidays, and he loves me.
He loves me.
Andrei taps his fingers against the edge of his glass impatiently, as if Iām taking too long to come to terms with this. As if Iām not handling my world shattering around me as well as he would like.
It pisses me off.
Iāve always been positive. Optimistic. Hopeful. Maybe naive, but Iād rather that than be jaded. Heās chipping away at that, too,and that makes me angrier. This man shouldnāt get to change anything about me. He shouldnāt get to alter my worldview.
All because of a fucking mistake.
āHow do you know any of this?ā I spit out. āJust because my father hasnāt called yet? Whatproofdo you have?āā
Andrei interrupts, before I can say anything else.
"The man I interrogated tonight," he says quietly. "He was one of Volkov's. He confirmed everythingāthe meetings, the resources your father has promised to provide, the beginning of Volkovās plans.ā
I can feel myself shaking my head in small, quick movements, like a tic. Like I can shake this all off and refuse to accept it.
āThey discussed security. Which of my men might be convinced to switch sides,ā Andrei continues. "Your father was assured that my organization is weak. That I can be brought down, if only Volkov had more money, more guns, more men. All things your father can help him acquire with money. The money he could use to simply ransomyou, and be done with this.ā Andrei gives a small, humorless laugh. āThe greed of man knows no end.ā
āYou would know,ā I spit out. āWhat is all of thisāā I motion to encapsulate the mansion and estate around us, āif not greed?ā
Andreiās mouth tightens. āIt is generations of hard work. Something you would know nothing about.ā