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Chapter 28 of "Secret Desire" opens introducing characters: I feel my eyes go wide and round, the insult hitting. āMy father works hard!āAndrei... Find out more!
I feel my eyes go wide and round, the insult hitting. āMy father works hard!ā
Andrei snorts and pours more vodka. āYour father. Sure. I am sure he has worked very hard.You, on the other handā¦ā He gives me a derisive look. āPrintsessa-pevunāya. Princess songbird.ā His lip curls. āPrintsessa-kaprizulya. Princess brat.ā
Something in his voice makes heat curl in my stomach despite the obvious derision in his words. Thereās somethingdark there, too, something beyond his clear disdain for me and my life. He wants me out of his mansion, but he wants something else, too.
I wrap my arms around myself, licking my dry lips and ignoring the way his gaze flicks to my mouth. "I don't believe you," I whisper.
Andrei tosses back another shot. "Yes you do."
"No, I?ā"
āYou do.ā He sets the glass down. āYou know that I am not lying.ā
I feel a tear well up and try to escape. I swipe angrily at my eye. I refuse to let this man see me cry, to see that heās broken me.Again, if I count the other day, when he kissed me and I foolishly kissed him back. When he made me forget, for a second, that heās my captor. A bad, dangerous man.
When I got off imagining what else he might have done to me, and felt so guilty afterward. Even thoughāespeciallybecauseāthe orgasm was the best Iāve ever had. Even with another person.
"My father wouldn't abandon me," I whisper. But I can hear my voice waver, and I know he does, too.
Andreiās jaw tightens. "He already has."
"Then why are you telling me this?" I glare at him. āIf heās already abandoned me and heās working with the enemy, why are we having this conversation?ā I jerk my chin upward, trying to fake bravery I donāt feel. āJust go ahead and kill me. Thatās what happens next, right? Just shoot me and get it over with.ā
I see him look at me for a long, drawn out moment. āThat is what I should do,ā he admits.
And then he takes another shot. As if just the thought makes him need a drink.
Against all my better sense, a small flicker of hope warms within me. If he wanted to kill me, he would have done it assoon as he came back, I reason. He wouldnāt have taken so long standing here, talking to me, drinking. He doesnāt want to kill me.
āI donāt think Iām going to do that,ā he admits.
I scoff. I canāt help it. Allowing myself to believe him feels too dangerous, like it will make it all the more horrible when I find out that heās not telling the truth and that Iām going to die. āSure.ā I sniff, curling my upper lip. āYouāre going to let me live. And what? Stay here? Go home? Your men wonāt stand for it, if you keep me or let me leave. Thatās how all this works, right? Iām the enemy now, so I have to die.ā
His lip curls into a sneer. He slams the glass down, so hard it makes me flinch, so hard I think itās going to break. And then he comes toward me, his movements so graceful and deadly they make me think of a big cat. Heprowlstoward me. Itās the only word I can think of to describe it. His jaw is clenched so tight I can see the muscles twitching.
āYou think Iām a monster.ā His voice is a low, deadly growl.
I back up, quickly, nearly tripping over the chair in my haste. I see the door to the library, but Iād have to go past him to get to it. And where would I go, from there? The estate is filled with his guards, his men. I would never escape.
I back up further, toward the library shelves, until thereās nowhere left to go. And he keeps coming, until heās right in front of me, staring down at me.
āYou think Iām such a horrible man,ā he grits out. āA murderer. A vile beast. But look at what your father is doing to you.ā A slow, vicious smile curves his lips, the first one Iāve ever seen on his face. The kind of smile Iād hoped to never see. āThat good, upstanding businessman who raised you. Heās abandoned you, Liesl. Abandoned you to the wolves, while he plots to get richer. And if youāre still alive when the dust settles and heās gotten what he wants, well⦠then that will be a bonus, wonāt it?ā
āStop,ā I whisper, but he doesnāt.
āTell me, Liesl, what it means that yourhorriblejailer hasnāt shot you dead yet, while your father plots and betrays you on the other side of this city?ā
I swallow hard, looking up at him. Heās coldly, terrifyingly beautiful. Every inch of him looks like he was sculpted by a god. His jaw, his cheekbones, his full lips. His lean, muscled body, his veined forearms. His hands, long-fingered and brutal, stained inā¦
My breath catches in my lungs.Bloodstained. Thereās blood on his fingers, in the creases, under the nails.
Heās right. Iām not dead yet. He could have killed me after the first forty-eight hours, and he didnāt. He could have killed me before we ever had this conversation, and he didnāt.
I donāt think he wants to, deep down. I think heās trying to find any way he can to get out of it.
That ember of hope sparks into a flare.
āMaybe you arenāt so horrible,ā I whisper. āDeep down. Maybe youāre not as bad as you want to think you are.ā