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Chapter 10 of "Dirty Secrets" kicks off with: With me.He almost chokes on his lasagna and reaches for his wine glass, chugging whatās... Continue reading!
With me.
He almost chokes on his lasagna and reaches for his wine glass, chugging whatās left to wash it down.
Shit. Did I say that last part out loud? I really need to learn how to keep my inner monologue on the inside.
āIām not in the market for a fuck buddy at the moment, either.ā
My heart rate slows down a hair. If I said the last bit out loud, and if he heard me, heās not acknowledging it. Which suits me just fine. Two can play the avoidance game.
āWhy not?ā I press. Just because I dodged a bullet doesnāt mean Iām abandoning the subject. I just have to be more careful about what comes out of my mouth. I push away my half-full wine glass and hop off my stool to get some water from the dispenser on the refrigerator door. Canāt be too cautious.
He cuts himself another healthy-sized square of lasagna and refills his wine glass, apparently not as concerned with committing an alcohol-induced slip of the lip as I am. āAre we seriously talking about this?ā
āItāll be quicker and far less painful if you answer and get it over with. Like ripping off a bandaid.ā
He shoots me a skeptical look over the rim of his glass but answers anyway. āWould you believe me if I said I prefer to get to know a girl before sleeping with her?ā
āSo go out. Get to know one.ā Or two. Or ten. Who am I to judge what heās into?
Then again, he could always stay in and get to know the one whoās sleeping in the next bedroom...
I give myself a mental bitch slap. I promised him Iād be Blue-Man-Group level quiet. Unobtrusive. Practically invisible. Not some creepy stalker who wants to play hide the cannoli.
Connor stares longingly at his lasagna. āYou make it sound so easy.ā
He says it so low I almost donāt hear him. And even though I didāeach word, soft but distinctāIām having a hard time believing what I think heās saying. āAre you telling me you have trouble meeting women?ā
āNot trouble, exactly. I just find the whole dating sceneādistasteful. All the women at the club see is my money. And status. The whole on line thing is ridiculous. Nobody is who or what they say they are. And donāt even get me started on apps like Tinder and Bumble. Theyāre a whole new level of cringeworthy. Iām not some sex-obsessed swinger like myāā
He cuts himself off, but it doesnāt take a mind reader to know where heās going. I might have only been in elementary school at the time, but I remember overhearing my parents speaking in hushed tones after they thought Jake and I were asleep, whispering about āthat douchebag Vincent Dowāāmy fatherās wordsāand how he was āscrewing around on his sick wifeā with a woman barely ten years older than his twelve-year-old son.
That relationship didnāt lastābig surpriseābut from the pictures Iāve seen of Connorās dad in gossip magsāheās some big-shot mystery/thriller writer, but Iām a happily-ever-after kind of gal so that suspense-y stuff is totally not my jamāhis appetite for pretty young things hasnāt diminished over the years.
āHow did you meet Giselle, then?ā I ask, sensing Connor needs to be jolted out of his melancholy introspection.
He reaches for his wine glass, and I donāt blame him for needing a little liquid courage to deal with the shit that thinking of his dad must stir up. āLike I said, we were at Columbia together. But truth be told, I probably never would have gotten up the nerve to speak to her in the first place if it wasnāt for Jake.ā
I arch a brow at him. āDo I want to hear this story? Or is it going to gross me out? Remember, thatās my flesh and blood youāre talking about. I donāt want to know if you were dating his sloppy seconds.ā
āGive me a little credit. Iām not that desperate.ā He takes one last bite of lasagna and pushes the half-eaten square away. āJake convinced me to go to this frat party with him. Giselle was there. He saw me gawking at her, dragged me over, and forced me to introduce myself.ā
āNow I get it. Jakeās your Angelica Schuyler. Or he was, until he and Ainsley got together.ā With my brother off the market and spending every free second with Ainsley, Connorās lost his wingman. He needs someone to help bring him out of his sexy shell.
āMy what?ā
I gape at him incredulously. āDonāt tell me you havenāt seenHamilton.ā
āWhoās got the time? Or an in to get tickets. Arenāt they sold out for months?ā
āIāve got a friend in the ensemble. I could hook you up with house seats.ā Theyāre pricey, but he can afford them.
āWill that help me understand why Jakeās myāwhatās her name?ā
āAngelica Schuyler. Sheās the one who fixed her sister Eliza up with Hamilton, her eventual husband.ā At great personal sacrifice, I might add. If you believe the musical, and the book itās based on, Angelica had the hots for good old Alexander herself. But she stepped aside to ensure her sisterās happiness, even knowing it meant sheād never be satisfied.
Kind of like Iām about to do now. Because as much as Iād like to keep my brotherās super smexy best friend all to myself, I know thatās a recipe for disaster. And not only because of the whole brotherās-best-friend-and-business-partner thing. Iāve got a pretty good feeling weād be combustible in the bedroom, but out of it, weāre like oil and water. Heās serious. Iām silly. Heās into health food. Iām a junk food junkie. Heās firmly planted in the Big Apple. Iām a rolling stone, going wherever my work takes me.
See what Iām talking about? Oil and water. And thatās just the tip of the iceberg. Weāre pretty much polar opposites in every conceivable way.